Monthly Recap: October 2018

Thursday, November 15, 2018

Listened to:

Halsey – Without Me

I said I'd catch you if you fall
And if they laugh, then fuck 'em all (all)
And then I got you off your knees
Put you right back on your feet
Just so you could take advantage of me

Tell me, how's it sittin 'up there?
Feeling so high, but too far away to hold me
You know I'm the one who puts you up there
Name in the sky, does it ever get lonely?
Thinking you could live without me

Gave love 'bout a hundred tries (hundred tries)
Just running from the demons in your mind
Then I took yours and made 'em mine (mine)
I didn't notice 'cause my love was blind

You don't have to say just what you did (what you did)
I already know (I know)
I had to go and find out from them
So tell me, how's it feel?

Sofi de la Torre – Vermillion, Noir, Flex Your Way Out (feat. Blackbear) & Run That Back

Oh hello! I love to rediscover artists and songs I've loved. In 2014, Sofi de la Torre's "Vermillion" and "Noir" was on non stop replay. I really loved her airy voice and the beats. I didn't even know that she had a collaboration with Blackbear back in 2016. Her new single "Run That Back" is also really cool. Check her out!


Olivia Laing – The Lonely City

A calm, honest and kind of painful book. Painful because it is so true. Olivia Laing describes  the feeling of loneliness through art and the way she does it, is art. Really loved it.

Dan Ariely – Predictably Irrational

That was a quick read! My psychology professor recommended me Dan Ariely because he compared my writing style to his. And well, I really liked it. Cannot wait to read the other book I have from him.

Daniel Kahnemann – Thinking Fast, Thinking Slow

Must read. I already knew a lot of the topics he wrote about but it always taught me something new. I recommend everyone to read it.



I was very excited of the movie and on my birthday it finally came out. It was fun. Maybe it was a bit too funny for a dark villain movie. But hey, sexy Tom Hardy!

Ocean's 8

I didn't watch the last third of the film, since I watched it on the plane and we already were landing. It was fun until the point I watched it though.

Sierra Burgess is a Loser

Hm. I don't know. I like coming of age movies and I love Noah Centineo. But I am not too sure if I like the message of the movie: "If you are fat, you are ugly and nobody will like you" and "Liars get rewarded in the end". On the other hand it perfectly showed that beauty standards still exist and impact today.

Like Father

Kristen Bell is just pure love. She is witty, smart, sympathetic, funny. So was the movie.


Whoah okay. People described Élite as a crossover of Pretty Little Liars and Gossip Girl. Two shows, I never really liked a lot. Well, but I thought Élite was fun. Exaggerated of course and everything escalated in the last two episodes. But I enjoyed it and looking forward for season 2. I am looking for a new good series in Spanish, by the way!

Travelled to/Attended:


Good old mother land. I really enjoyed the weeks in Seoul. My sister already left on the 2nd October and I stayed two more weeks to spend more time with my Mum, to travel and just to enjoy being home. This time, I really took the time to destress and find my inner calm again. Sounds cheesy but the past months were emotionally drenching and exhausting that I felt quite lost and restless. So yeah, the rest was much needed. I ate a lot of comfort food, spend time with my family, slept a lot, went to museums, travelled, but also worked. It was awesome.

Kicki Yang Zhang, Leni Paperboats, Nessie & Kieumy @ Sunny's Dining

Many of you may wonder, what Sunny's Dining is. Well, you don't have to wait long, I will write a whole post about it. In short: It's the Korean dessert cooking studio owned by my Mum and Aunt in Seoul.

During my stay in Korea I invited some influencers and content creators to the studio. On 1st October Kicki Yang Zhang, Leni from Paperboats, Nessie and Kieumy visited and were taught how to make Gangjeong, Korean crispies. It was fun to work with the girls

Joan Kim & Christine Park @ Sunny's Dining

I also had the chance to meet Joan Kim and Christine Park at Sunny's Dining! I've been watching her videos for about 1-2 years now and it was so nice to have them at the studio.

Mediacity Biennale @ Seoul Museum of Art

The Mediacity Biennale is taking place in Seoul right now (until 18th November 2018) and I took the chance to see it at the Museum of Art. I liked the installations on the first floor, the others on the other floors were quite confusing to me. If you have the chance to go, then see it! It's free of entrance.

My 24th Birthday in Seoul

My 24th birthday was very calm. During the day I made some Hwagwaja at Sunny's Dining, had my favourite veggie bibimbab at Hwangtotkil, ate some yummy green tea ice cream at Baskin Robbins, met Deadpool in Sinchon, ran into festivities between Korea University vs Yonsei University and watched Venom with sexy Tom Hardy. It was a good day.

Taiwan (Taipei & New Taipei: Yehliu, Jiufen & Shifen)

Monday morning after my birthday I took off to Taiwan. Taiwan was number 21 on my list of countries I have visited so far. I already wanted to visit Taiwan last year, but then I fell ill after Hong Kong and Macau.

Anyway, I travelled to Taipei and several places in New Taipei (Yehliu, Jiufen and Shifen).

I was super impressed by Yehliu. The landscape was shaped by geological factors and was just so interesting. But well, of course it was crowded as hell.

It is said that Miyazaki's village in Spirited Away was influenced by the mountain village of Jiufen. Everywhere I went, I saw scenes of the movie. The alley with the food stands and red lamps and of course the A-Mei Tea House, which was the base for Miyazaki's bath house. The view from the tea house and the tea itself was nice, but the staff ... Wow. How rude they were.

Shifen is a small village at the railroad. In former days it was a village for coal transportation but nowadays it lives off tourism. Tourists can light up lanterns and send out wishes. Unfortunately the trash isn't collected afterwards, I wish I had known that before.

Taipei was.. boring. It wasn't too pretty, it wasn't too exciting. Maybe I am already too used to East Asian mega cities. There are several spots which are cool to experience. In my opinion Taiwan has more pretty landscapes (New Taipei, Sun Moon Lake and Pinglin) to offer than interesting cities. So, maybe next time?

Anja in Seoul

My dearest giraffe visited me in Seoul! I was exhausted from my trip to Taiwan, so I was quite tired all the time. But it was nice to see her and show her around my hometown. In fact, Anja was the first person who visited me in Korea. Of course I already met few people throughout the year but she was the first one who travelled there actively to visit me. We had a lovely time sightseeing, eating, partying and shopping.

Octagon Club

Octagon is listed as one of the best clubs in the world by DJ Mag (rank 7) but well, how true are those lists anyway? It definitely wasn't my kind of music (EDM, oh god) but with Anja it was still fun. She was quite shocked how assertive Korean guys are, though (German and Spanish guys are nothing compared to them). Well yeah, that was annoying. But still, fun night!

My Post-Birthday Bash and Farewell Party @ Aufsturz in Berlin

I celebrated my 24th birthday bash at Aufsturz in Mitte with some of my closest friends. It was my farewell party as well since I moved to Hamburg the very next day. It was so nice to have them all in one place. We had lovely chats, reminisced about former times, had some drinks, laughed a lot, took a bunch of photos. Thank you to everyone who joined and to those, who couldn't be there due to health or distance issues! I will miss you!


Moin Hamburch, meine Perle. New city, new job, new chapter. That's gonna be my new home for the next 12 months (more or less) and well, it hasn't sunk in yet. We were very lucky this year regarding the weather and luckily the autumn is also very sunny and golden, even in the north. The new work feels a bit like attending university again, since we have workshops everyday and learn about media and advertisement, diverse software, strategy, creative methods, etc.

What I've eaten:

A lot of Korean food of course (bibimbab, sushi, grilled fish, stews, rice cake soups, Korean leak pancakes with seafood, mandoos aka Korean dumplings, noodle soups, BBQ ...), Taiwanese food (lots and lots of great seafood, dim sum and boba), Lebanese falafel in Berlin, Japanese ramen with Anny and Vietnamese pho with Nele in Hamburg. And a bunch of food I cooked at home.

Thoughts & Feelings:

October is over. It's so crazy to think about how I spent the first half of month still in Asia, went back to Berlin for a few days and now I'm living in Hamburg. Like ... how did this all happen?

October was hell of a busy month. Seoul, Sunny's Dining, my birthday, Taiwan, Anja visiting me in Seoul, my farewell and birthday party in Berlin, my move to Hamburg, new job, new people ... I want to be honest. After about 1 1/2 year of gap time (even though I worked during that time), it was kind of hard to get back into a routine. It still is. Waking up early, having long working hours, and extremely short weekends. My health wasn't the best throughout the month due to the lack of working out, travelling and new exhaustion. After I come home from work I just want to eat, hit the gym, shower and go to bed. Being social is exhausting, but I guess I have to get out more not to get lonely in this gloomy town.

Emotionally, I had my ups and downs. I had huge anger issues, doubted myself a lot, I was quite desperate for ... I don't even know. But fortunately I got over that. I just realised that I am bigger than my self doubts. I have awesome friends, I have a loving family, I am (mostly) healthy, I like my jobs, I love myself. I should stop getting affected by single persons. All the past months I was telling myself that I am okay. But I was just pretending. It wasn't until this month, I finally felt recovering for real.

Moving to Hamburg helped me a lot. I was able to clear my mind and sort out confusing feelings. And yes, seeing something different and not being constantly reminded of certain memories everywhere I went helped a lot. Somehow it's funny. Every time I decide to end something, I flee to a new place. And apparently it's working. I think that says a lot about me ...

I promised to myself to be selfish. To take care of myself. I will speak out, I will be honest, I will get everything and everywhere I want. I will do everything I want, I won't hold myself back. I will stop putting the feelings and well-being of others over mine.

A new part just has started. And I want to experience this with a fresh mind. There's no space for problems of the past. I can be anyone I want, I can reach anything I want if I stay focused and work hard for it. So let's do it.

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